Tag Archives: depression

Ankles Grabbed

Posted on March 6, 2017 by PookyH

Ankles grabbed I’m drowning As I sink into the dirt Ankles grabbed I struggle But the struggle makes it hurt Ankles grabbed I breathe my last And settle in the mud Ankles grabbed I nestle Wrapped in sinew, dirt and … Continue reading →

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Sun Shine and Tears

Posted on August 23, 2016 by PookyH

Why is it When the sun shines, That my mood sinks; I feel sad? The brightest, Nicest, Sunny days, All leave me Feeling sad. Is it the weight of expectation That these summer days all bring That make me feel … Continue reading →

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When the Rain Falls

Posted on May 10, 2016 by PookyH

When the rain falls, I feel more able To face the world. It’s strange. The sun Makes me shrink away; Unable to live up to the expectation A bright day brings. Blue skies make me grey. But grey skies Make … Continue reading →

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It’s Complicated

Posted on May 3, 2016 by PookyH

When she said that she wished The ground would swallow her up, It was not embarrassment that drove her. Not self-pity or shame. It was pure self-hatred. Never had she wished it more than now. If there were an easy … Continue reading →

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Bottomless

Posted on May 1, 2016 by PookyH

Voids filled with voids And blanks filled with blanks, Each day was a hole, For which he gave no thanks; For each day was a pit, Filled with nothing but air, No thoughts And no feelings, Not even despair. Emotionless, … Continue reading →

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Have a good time!

Posted on March 28, 2016 by PookyH

They told me to ‘Have a good time!’ And it felt like an order, not one I could follow. I wanted to have a good time, but I knew That I’d smile for the snaps but feel hollow. To have … Continue reading →

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Tumbling Down

Posted on March 23, 2016 by PookyH

How could it be, he wondered, That one minute, things were fine. It was a good day of sunny mind, Then, for no reason, he suddenly Fell In A Hole? Climbing out Took far longer Than falling down. He had … Continue reading →

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Intruder in my own life

Posted on March 12, 2016 by PookyH

An observer in my own life, I no longer know how To fit in; How to move from the fringes Of conversation And family life. How to laugh Rather than observe laughing. How to play, Rather than watch others play. … Continue reading →

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Moment by Moment

Posted on February 23, 2016 by PookyH

[Trigger warning – I’m struggling a lot with thoughts of suicide at the moment which are echoed here. International suicide hotlines] Sometimes, the future looks bright, The possibilities many, Inspiring, Exciting. I feel full of hope and want to fight. … Continue reading →

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…And on

Posted on February 11, 2016 by PookyH

Huddled in a corner Ashamed of what she had become She brushed away her tears She must be seen to overcome. She picked herself back up again, Dusted lint from crumpled clothes, Pulled tangles from her knotted hair, And wiped … Continue reading →

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