Tag Archives: anorexia

Ankles Grabbed

Posted on March 6, 2017 by PookyH

Ankles grabbed I’m drowning As I sink into the dirt Ankles grabbed I struggle But the struggle makes it hurt Ankles grabbed I breathe my last And settle in the mud Ankles grabbed I nestle Wrapped in sinew, dirt and … Continue reading →

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Dinner Time

Posted on September 18, 2016 by PookyH

Just eating is enough. I tell myself. Maybe it’s the same meal thrice daily, But that’s HUGE! I tell myself. I’ve gone from nothing, Shrinking, Dying. To eating, eating, eating. The same food, With a beta blocker chaser. Finally, it … Continue reading →

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Not Yet Good Enough

Posted on August 9, 2016 by PookyH

My best is not yet good enough, I try, and yet I fail, I eat and eat and yet I’m thin, You tell me that I’m frail. I’m frail of body, frail of mind, I don’t know what to do, … Continue reading →

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Aches and Pains

Posted on June 29, 2016 by PookyH

Your cuddle soothes, And kiss caress My head; My head is such a mess. Your hand in mine, My heart with yours, Into your ear My trouble pours. You cannot help, But listen well( The agony My stomach swells. The … Continue reading →

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Fast [Haiku]

Posted on June 18, 2016 by PookyH

Even the best friends Cannot understand. They try; But won’t watch you die.

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Let me be? 

Posted on June 13, 2016 by PookyH

It’s because you care, And yet you hurt me, Because you cannot love me As I am. You cannot ever know The way it pains me, Knowing I’m not good enough For you. I like the way I am Right … Continue reading →

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Quandry

Posted on June 9, 2016 by PookyH

How I wish I could Not eat But not lose weight. I watch my bones grow outwards, Morphing my body Into a mass of jagged angles. No longer do I welcome this; Though once I did. I want to be … Continue reading →

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Fear of Food

Posted on June 1, 2016 by PookyH

Holding tight to the edges of reality, I think of food. It is the keeper of a kingdom In which I see myself; A place with love and hope, A place where futures bloom. Futures that are futile if not … Continue reading →

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The Hole

Posted on May 31, 2016 by PookyH

This hole I’m in, I didn’t dig it, Not purposefully. My foot slipped, Earth cascaded away beneath me And Before I knew it, I was knee deep in a muddy hole. I tried to step out, But I didn’t try … Continue reading →

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An Invitation to Dinner

Posted on May 15, 2016 by PookyH

Will you be joining us for dinner? You say. I say ‘No’ And I look at the floor. I know that I should, But I don’t think I could, Days are long, I can’t take any more. For you it’s … Continue reading →

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