Category Archives: Recovery

On Hiding 

Posted on July 5, 2017 by PookyH

You can only fall so far Fall so far before you hit Before you hit the ground The ground rides up to meet you. You can only run so far Run so far before the past Before the past runs … Continue reading →

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Thoughts on Trauma – a sonnet

Posted on June 6, 2017 by PookyH

Would I undo the things that you have done, And if I did would that mean I had won? I am not sure, though now I feel such pain, I can see brighter days beyond this strain. Those brighter days … Continue reading →

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To Stop or To Go On

Posted on September 21, 2016 by PookyH

To stop Or to go on? A question I often Ask. I Find myself At crossroads often. Standing, staring Into the road Beyond me Unsure.. It’s hard. What’s ahead Is uncertain Dark But What’s past Has streetlamps Sputtering, failing; Also … Continue reading →

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Dinner Time

Posted on September 18, 2016 by PookyH

Just eating is enough. I tell myself. Maybe it’s the same meal thrice daily, But that’s HUGE! I tell myself. I’ve gone from nothing, Shrinking, Dying. To eating, eating, eating. The same food, With a beta blocker chaser. Finally, it … Continue reading →

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Healing Hold

Posted on September 13, 2016 by PookyH

If I could take your pain away I would. I’d wear it, aching, shaking, But relieved. If I could know That your pain was no more. For now I’ll hold you close To help you heal.

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Kitten Cuddles

Posted on September 11, 2016 by PookyH

This day was not one Made for living. This day was not Very forgiving. It was one where her head Kept her confined to bed; The aching And gnawing, There was no ignoring She cuddled her kitten instead. This kitten … Continue reading →

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Day by Day

Posted on September 7, 2016 by PookyH

Sometimes it is safer To begin days at the end To determine where they’re leading, Are they foe? Or are they friend? If we know where they’re headed, And if we know they’ll end well, It is easier to manage … Continue reading →

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Ashes

Posted on September 6, 2016 by PookyH

Ash gathered in the grill; A pile of broken dreams And memories lost. Starved of oxygen The flames withered and died, Tortured memories grew cold And she, Spared her past, Went on to grow happy and old.

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Sun Shine and Tears

Posted on August 23, 2016 by PookyH

Why is it When the sun shines, That my mood sinks; I feel sad? The brightest, Nicest, Sunny days, All leave me Feeling sad. Is it the weight of expectation That these summer days all bring That make me feel … Continue reading →

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Forward Thinking Therapist…

Posted on August 16, 2016 by PookyH

You ask me to look forwards. It makes me dizzy. Forwards… three years? I can’t imagine making it to bed time some days. How would, could, should life be? What would I have for lunch? How would I feel? What … Continue reading →

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