Category Archives: Eating Disorders

Ankles Grabbed

Posted on March 6, 2017 by PookyH

Ankles grabbed I’m drowning As I sink into the dirt Ankles grabbed I struggle But the struggle makes it hurt Ankles grabbed I breathe my last And settle in the mud Ankles grabbed I nestle Wrapped in sinew, dirt and … Continue reading →

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Dinner Time

Posted on September 18, 2016 by PookyH

Just eating is enough. I tell myself. Maybe it’s the same meal thrice daily, But that’s HUGE! I tell myself. I’ve gone from nothing, Shrinking, Dying. To eating, eating, eating. The same food, With a beta blocker chaser. Finally, it … Continue reading →

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The Chase

Posted on August 31, 2016 by PookyH

The faster you run The faster I hide From the demon You you give rise to Clawing inside Of my guts Of my belly My mind And my head It’s monstrous Preposterous Why can’t you instead Just run slowly Less … Continue reading →

Posted in Abuse, anorexia, Anxiety, Bullying, Eating Disorders, Emotions, Mental Health, Relationships, Running, Trauma / PTSD | Tagged , , | 4 Comments

Cold

Posted on August 15, 2016 by PookyH

I’m cold in winter, And I’m cold in summer too. So cold that fingernails unpainted Are routinely tinged A ghostly blue. I sit and shuffle, Bones uncushioned, Causing pain. I drop my pen, Spill my black coffee, Once again. You … Continue reading →

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Not Yet Good Enough

Posted on August 9, 2016 by PookyH

My best is not yet good enough, I try, and yet I fail, I eat and eat and yet I’m thin, You tell me that I’m frail. I’m frail of body, frail of mind, I don’t know what to do, … Continue reading →

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Parting

Posted on July 19, 2016 by PookyH

It was easy to love you, It’s hard to let go. You’re not good for me, That much I know, How I know. But in your warm embrace, I feel happy And calm Though those watching us Look on In … Continue reading →

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Aches and Pains

Posted on June 29, 2016 by PookyH

Your cuddle soothes, And kiss caress My head; My head is such a mess. Your hand in mine, My heart with yours, Into your ear My trouble pours. You cannot help, But listen well( The agony My stomach swells. The … Continue reading →

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Perseverance 

Posted on June 24, 2016 by PookyH

What felt so hard, So alien, Grows easier with time, Practice And perseverance Pay off Until what once felt impossible Is quietly Achieved.

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Fast [Haiku]

Posted on June 18, 2016 by PookyH

Even the best friends Cannot understand. They try; But won’t watch you die.

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Let me be? 

Posted on June 13, 2016 by PookyH

It’s because you care, And yet you hurt me, Because you cannot love me As I am. You cannot ever know The way it pains me, Knowing I’m not good enough For you. I like the way I am Right … Continue reading →

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