You ask me why I cut myself

[Today is self-harm awareness day]

You ask me why,
I don’t have the words to tell you.
You ask me why,
But I don’t know myself,
You ask me why,
I wish I had an answer,
You ask me why,
I dodge your ask with stealth.

You want to know
If when I cut, it’s painful,
You want to know
If pain makes me feel good,
You want to know
What made me think to try this,
You want to know
If I feel understood.

I want to tell you
That I feel quite lonely,
I want to tell you
No one understands,
I want to tell you
Nothing else can help me,
I want to tell you
How much I long to hold your hand

But I am quiet
Because I fear you’ll judge me,
I am quiet,
I feel unworthy of your care,
I am quiet,
Because my words now fail me,
I am quiet,
But grateful that you’re there.


Daily Poem #898

For anyone with an interest in self-harm, I have recently been involved in the development of three short films and accompanying information packs for young people, parents and staff aimed at encouraging people to speak more about self-harm and to provide some practical support. You can view the resources here.

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3 Responses to You ask me why I cut myself

  1. angharad says:

    Love you ❤ Always here for you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being there for me ❤ xxx

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  2. Thanks for sharing this. I’ve been writing a series in staffrm called ’29 lessons from 29 unconventional teachers’ about the memories that stay with me from school years. In one I recall a friend showing me in class how she cuts herself, it’s here: http://staffrm.io/@learntschool/tOVEwbaao7 Than you for your courage sharing poetry on these topics.

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