Recovering Fate

Do you ever get the feeling

That your thoughts are not your own,

That the things you see were seen before,

And now you’re being shown?

 

Do you ever get the feeling

That you really don’t decide,

Where your feet are taking you,

You just sit back, enjoy the ride?

 

Do you ever get the feeling

That no matter what you try,

Someone’s made their mind up,

If today you’ll laugh or cry?
 

I don’t ever get that feeling

Because deep inside I know,

That today can be a good day;

But only if I make it so.
 

Fate - a poem by Pooky

 
[The thought behind this poem was one of inspiring recovery – from eating disorders, self-harm, drug addiction etc.  I’d love to know if you think it achieves that aim and how you think it could be improved]

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36 Responses to Recovering Fate

  1. lulupoetrycorner says:

    I wasn’t sure where you were going with this. I had to re-read to get it. And I read it again because I liked it so much!

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  2. Cubby says:

    My initial impression was that you were talking of deja vu or a predestined fate. Fate/destiny in the context of addiction also works, but I would not have made the connection without your explanation at the bottom. You can change the direction of the poem by reworking the title into something that gives a stronger link to addiction. Otherwise, I think it is a wonderful poem about taking control of one’s own fate. 🙂

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    • PookyH says:

      That’s a good idea though part of me doesn’t want to tell people how to read it if you know what I mean? As I was writing it it was all just about fate / destiny but it was just as I came to the ending (which surprised me) that I realised what my interpretation of it was and why it was important to end it on a positive.

      Does that make any sense at all??

      I think recovery from addiction and taking control of one’s own fate are the same thing – at least in my mind. SO my addiction is not eating and each day I have to make a positive decision to eat. That’s MY choice but when I was ill I felt like not eating was what I deserved or a path that was set out for me somehow??

      I don’t think I’m making a lot of sense tonight! I did a LOT of work on my thesis today. To the point that I was literally walking into walls at the end of the day as my perception had gone awry from staring so intently at the screen. Clearly it’s affected my ability to communicate coherently too!

      I loved your latest challenge too – though you set the bar rather too high 😉

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  3. Cubby says:

    What you say makes perfect sense and explains why the reader gets a strong impression of fate/destiny being the main message. I agree that recovery from addiction is the same as taking control of one’s own fate, and I feel a title such as “Recovering Fate” would allow for a broader interpretation without “telling” the reader what to think. I’m glad you managed to get so much work done on your thesis! And I don’t think the bar is too high, but I find inspiration comes easier when I am looking up and not down. 🙂

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    • PookyH says:

      Good idea. I like it and it is DONE. Thanks Cubby.

      Once draft one of my thesis is submitted (end of the week maybe, just maybe…) I’ll look up as you suggest and try one of your wonderful challenges.

      How do you decide what yo do / where do you find out about them?

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      • Cubby says:

        I search for different rhyming forms of poetry and see which ones I can work with. I am afraid of running out of forms that appeal to me. If you see a limerick challenge, you’ll know I’m really struggling to find new challenge forms. 😉

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      • PookyH says:

        Ha ha!

        Maybe if you run out of new ones it will be time to invent out own…

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  4. Madhura says:

    I really liked this. You don’t really get the message till your last verse, and then it made perfect sense to me!

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  5. As a poem about taking control in the general sense it is wonderful. Perhap, as someone above says, a stronger title and perhaps re-read it to see if the wording can be more explicit about the subject matter. But that said the final stanza is special

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  6. bloodnshadow says:

    Beautiful poetry. One’s life is one’s own. Freedom relies on doing what you’re most comfortable doing. One of the many shells of this life. I love your work! 🙂

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  7. Interesting! It flows really well and I think everyone can relate to this question of fate vs force of will. I know I can.

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    • PookyH says:

      Thanks Alarna – It’s a bit of a strange one because I had even less idea where it was going when I wrote it than I usually do!

      It seems a while since you’ve written your blog, I’m guessing you’re super busy?

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      • Oct is a busy time for me. But also a few months ago I decided to cut back to fortnightly posting because I wasn’t finding the weekly grind sustainable. I’m not good at multitasking, and cutting back has allowed me to breathe again! That being said, I will be posting today to change the timing of my fortnight!

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      • PookyH says:

        I shall look forward to that in which case! It’s good that you’ve got control of things. How come you’re so busy in October?

        I’m busy this October because I decided that I MUST hand in the first draft of my PhD thesis before October was out.

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      • Oh! Well that is a serious endeavour! Oct / early Nov are busy because 5+ members of my family (including partner) have birthdays, and this year we are celebrating a combined 40th / 70th for my brother, Mum and her twin sister! So family reunion plans are getting out of hand 🙂 Wish you best of success with your PhD thesis. Is that about eating disorders?

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      • PookyH says:

        Oh wow! Party time! We have a few but not quite so many, my mother in law is on Sunday, mine is Halloween and Lyra’s is November 18th and this year she wants a party with her new nursery school friends…

        Enjoy your planning. That sounds fun – will it be a big gathering?

        The thesis is not a huge job thankfully as my university has a new system where you can include published studies as a chapter so all of the hard work is done as my papers are all published so I just need to write the introduction and discussion. And as my research is so novel, the literature review is sparse.

        Yes – this is my eating disorders research. I’ll be glad to finally submit my thesis. It has been a long time coming and my mind is on next steps now…

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      • Your PhD submission will be a great birthday present to yourself then 🙂 I will make an effort to remember your day!

        25 of us (including 13 kids) have booked a big house for two nights in November by the beach! It’s gonna be crazy 🙂

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      • PookyH says:

        Oh wow that sounds amazing! I hope you have a phenomenal time 🙂

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  8. I love this Pooky. Its very deep and you have a lovely gentle way of making deep easy to grasp.

    We need to take responsibility for our own lives, something I only began to learn in my recovery from alcoholism. And it is a very simple concept but takes a great deal of hard work, with many mishaps along the way.

    Xx

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    • PookyH says:

      I think when you have an addiction of any kind it can be easy to liken it to fate – that your illness or addiction ‘makes’ you do certain things and it’s certainly true, but the only way (I’ve found) to overcome it is to take positive control.

      It must have been very hard to overcome alcoholism. What motivated you to do so?

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  9. Near death motivated me; I reached a point of death or surrender. I chose surrender just in time. Xx

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  10. Yes, its a very long story with years of denial. I am one of the fortunate ones who arrived at surrender before it was too late; I have been to quite a few funerals within the rooms of aA of people who just couldnt “get it”. A complete wateof beautiful life xx

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  11. I know; I have shed loads of gratitude! 😊

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